romance movies make me uncomfortable
they almost always involve characters who fall in love at first sight,
the magic spark, the chemistry that we've all been brainwashed to believe in.
it is uncomfortable because I have experienced it, I was a believer that was deceived.
that deception, that inability to trust your own feelings, your own intuitions leads
to a disappointment like no other. It shakes the core of what you believe and you are
forced to build new perspectives on life and your self.
the hardest part is the ghosts that still haunt you, the traces of these desires and beliefs that still
remain. it's as lusty as the best lover, as painful as the hardest memory.
all i'm looking for is an exorcism
and more realistic movies.